xu xi:
hello,my name is xu xi .:) i came across your blog through many many links, and i find this speak up board a really cool thing .just like having some online counselling ,where you don't have to fear that the other partner will spill your secrets out .
i have a major problems that i need people to give me advise . firstly , i have been in love with a guy , mark , from my class for 6months , i was in the late april intake of a ite school , therefore , it was around the starting of may that i fall in love with him . i tried ways to get close to him , and when i finally did , he told me that he like me too . but one problem , he doesn't seems to really be interested in me , and many of my classmates say that he is just indecisive and playing with me . i feel hurt every single time they say this . i waited for him , and in his mind , we are together . but to me , i don't feel that way . because i know deep in my heart that he doesn't even have the intention to be my steady .
meanwhile , there is a classmate of mine and a brother of mark, rick , who i am very close with . we starting being close just 2months before and we react towards each other just like 'childhood friends' , who were close , walked hand in hand in public , a goodbye hug . sadly , he'll be sent back to his country , england as his parents had ended their working contract in singapore . on dec5 , would be his last day here and he has a girlfriend , who has been waiting for him in england for close to 2 years . just yesterday , he confessed to me that he like me but because i have a ' boyfriend ' , that is why he had always hide his feeling towards me . and he give me a kiss on my lips twice , i stared in space with shock , and i told him that he has a girlfriend who has been waiting for him , and we are impossible because we both have alot of differences . he told me that he doesn't like his girlfriend anymore because of me , but i still rejected his love in the end . after which , he turn and walked away and i chased him . i hug him and kiss him back on his lips and we started frenching . i know that spending time with him nowdays make me fall in love with him and forget mark . but , he will be leaving singapore in 9 days time and perhaps we wouldn't get to see each other anymore . i was devastated and today when we met in class , we acted as though nothing happen . when he saw me and mark seating next to each other , he would act as though he didn't see it and turn away . and the whole of today , i have been treating mark really really cold . i don't wish to get close to him , or even to see him . i texted him after school and asked him what if i am no longer love him anymore , what will he do . and he replyed saying that he will die without me .
hey athari , could you please give a solution to my problem ? i am confused . i don't want others to think of me as a flirtatious girl . but all this while , it has been rick who is by my side . i don't know how to be true to mark and tell him that i do have feelings for his brother , and i know that my heart likes both right now . but on the other hand , rick has a girlfriend in england waiting for him and i have a 'boyfriend' . what should i do?


athari:
thank you(=.
first thing, why would he say that he like you but not interested?.
i understand how you feel.its like waiting while nothing is coming. but there is a chance that he might have his own reasons but you cant just give up on him. then about rick, you both just cant be together because these obstacles such like he have a girlfriend and he assumed that you have a boyfriend. you did the right thing to reject because you dont want a conflict between rick and his awaiting girlfriend. i know its hard but this is life. sacrifices. you shouldnt have treated rick cold. and for mark, try to confront him, not practically confront but talk with mark with open minds and re-considering your relationship with mark about both of you and about rick.

the main thing now is just treat rick the same like you use to be and do remmember him as a friend.
for mark, you might considering talking to him.

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